Don’t Know, Don’t Speak.

Is anyone out there completely non-judgmental? I don’t think so. I think no matter how much we want to give ppl the benefit of the doubt .. Deep down we already have some conceptions as to how and why ppl do or say certain tings. As it has been, a long standing tradition during mamak sessions with frens, we will took about sch ( well, now coll life ), latest music and movies and then the juicy sordid details of who did wat, whr, wen and why. Recently it has mainly been about 2 ppl, who I shall not name. Needless to say, I’m not really on good terms with either of these 2. Most of my frens don’t realise this, but wen they star verbally bashing these 2, I clam up and juz occasionally flash a tight smile. This is becos, I used to be quite close with one of em. I looked out for that person and was concerned of that person’s where abouts and well being. Though, since we now no longer speak, I guess my concern was not appreciated. True, I don’t say much or throw in insults after evry ‘story’, does it make me a better person? Almost nobody likes those 2, but does it give anyone the right to talk bout them? I’m a little confused, about how I feel. I know I shld stop ppl frm talking bout those 2, but at the same time it gives me a certain satisfaction hearing about the diff ppl who have come to hate them. I knw, I sound like a horrible, terrible witch. But, honestly, dats how I feel. On Monday, Jared asked my out to One Utama this Friday. I said I cld go, den he asked me if I’ve seen ‘the-person-I-had-a-falling-out-with’. So, I had to tell him we weren’t speaking and dat if we all went out as a group, well, it wld be unpleasant to put it lightly. He den asked me to try talking and approaching that person, so we cld patch up. I muz admit, I kinda lost it den. I did try. I complimented that person on a job well done even though, that person had not said one word to me in weeks, and I got shot down. I keep getting bashed on that person’s blog and hear rumours that ‘said-person’ had been talking about me to other people who I hve nvr even met! So, I just wanna clear this, so that innocent ppl like Jared don’t get their heads bitten off by me : I gave it my very best and tried to work things out. Its been 6 mths, and we’ve still not spoken to each other. So, if you have any advice on how to patch things up btwn 2 ppl who’ve had a falling out, all I’ll say is this. You can take that advice and pass it on to others, becos its not needed here. Leave that matter alone. Jangan ungkitkan lagi benda tu, cos I tak minat nak ckp atau fikir pasal tu lagi. Faham?.. To all those well meaning ppl out thr, I apologize if I seem crabby. If you are trying to bring together two ppl and make them frens again, I suggest you stop it and leave them alone. True frens will be able to work tings out on their own any all ur fussing over them won’t help. In the end, if they don’t speak to each other ever again, either their friendship was bullshit or one of them did sumting reli reli bad. If you Don’t Know wat’s wrong, Don’t Speak your mind bout it. 1.55 AM, June 26 2007. ( Wed )