The Beginning ...

Well .. The sun's rising on my life as an adult .. and setting on my life as a teenager. I've grown and matured thru good and bad experiences. Truthfully, I think i've developed more this past 2 mths compared to the past 2 yrs. I used to have a blog on frenster .. but i haven't posted anything for awhile and when i look back in retrospection .. i see thru my words as being childish and narrow minded. So, i decided to start anew .. I'll be recording my life as a teen beginning from now, on this blog. Don't worry, I won't delete my ex-posts on frenster and evryone is welcome to peruse it .. those posts will always be compared to the newer me .. just to remind me never to be infantile again. The important stuff that has happened to me that deserves mention : 1. Finally realising how pointless and low it is to curse and swear. Peer pressure played a part, but its no point blaming others for your incapability to control yourself. I'm proud to say I don't use such obscenities as frequently. Words still slip out when I'm enraged and such. Thus, my next mission is to be less emotional. 2. Finding a true friend who has stuck by me. Eva Yap, thanks for being there, for making me laugh when I really needed to, for spending time listening to my aimless rants and for never rolling your eyes when you didn't understand me. 3. Realising that having grudges will just shorten your life. Forgiveness will truly set you free. Charlotte Gan, I never said it in public, so now I am : I'm sorry. 4. Ah Tai passed away last yr (2006) she was 92 I think. I went to KAC even though she was weak. The very nxt day after i came back from camp, I went to visit her at my granparents' plc. I was tired so i went to my cuz's room to nap. less than 2 hours later, they woke me up and told me .. she was gone. She was my great-granma ( dad's grandmother ). I guess she wanted to see me one last time. I will forever remember her, as will all the people in my extended-extended family. May she rest in peace. That was a really confusing time for me .. due to an aspect that I cant discuss publicly .. yet .. I was slapped with the reality of immortality. people you love will leave you .. so cherish them while they're here instead of mourning them when they're gone. Things that have happened to me these past 2 mths : 1. I went to KAC again. My family was supposed to go up to penang. They were gonna pick me up from the campsite on the way. On the last night of camp, mom called. She said kong kong is admitted in hospital. My grandad ( mom's father ) has never been admitted into hospital. before he was admitted, he cld carry rocks and flower pots that i couldn't even move an inch. So, i was shocked, and mom refused to tell me what happened. I broke down when unc. jimmy asked me why mom called. If you all ( Unc. Jimmy, Unc. Alan, Abel Kor Kor, Jeen Yi, Foo Weng ) are reading this. Thanks again for all your support and prayers. Anyway, kong kong's home now, he's kinda an invalid but we're hoping he'll soon be stronger. e's goin for physiotherapy and stuff. Mom's struggling, so I quit my job so i cld help her cope for now. 2. I was told I got my scholarship to the States. So, I'm basically gonna be alone miles and miles away from home, family, frens .. mamak .. =P I have to buck up and think more, plan more, help more .. This is a really long 1st post. So, I think i'll just sign off now .. Oh.. and Happy Father's Day to all !